for a few hours almost every day, i asked Him to pour out the abundance of who He is like unleashed clouds on those warm hazy August days. that is something He loves to do... to drench us in Himself! i soaked in Truth, drank in Mystery, overwhelmed again that this Well will not run dry.
Creator and Restorer, Accessible and Unchanging, Sovereign and Faithful, Merciful, Just, Good...
did you know it's possible to be completely satisfied and achingly thirsty at the same time?
to both see Him more clearly and know at the very core of your being that these mysteries are beyond your understanding?
to recognize yourself as He created you, Image Bearer, and yet long to know who you are becoming more strongly than ever?
it's a rumbling waterfall of contrasting feelings- noisy and restful at once.
i tell you this because i am not so strong, not so faithful. i'm angry at this bad news, hurt by the chemotherapy, afraid for my children, sad for my husband.
i'm also sure of this:
all that God showed me of Himself in August
did not become untrue in September.
He is still enough.
your prayers, gifts, letters, hugs, meals, kind words, service and love are such an offering of His grace to our family... we will never be able to give back all that we've already received, and we are grateful that you are pouring out on us.
we love you. yes- you.